`'* dreams are beckonin

"maybe he's working wid aliens"

(: the date today is 4th feb.
the days of feburary are killing me.
5 more days to chi new year.

i just hope life gets sweeter

losing a big part of ya life.
and gaining a big part of ya life.
in a single mthis really no easy task, i swear.

its so huge that its suffocating.

its like here i am,
minding my own business.
trying to smile & be happy.
things are just against the odds.
some anti-gravitational energy just looms in on me.
like when ya happy they make you sad.
when ya down, they make you void.
when ya void, they bring in light.
like make up ya mind already.

maybe i dont know what im talking abt
just that those phrases sounds chim & nice,
well thats al.
talk too much abt nth she knows of
and cheats the whole world of her lvl of intelligence.

now she's just acting cute.

ok, IM DESPERATE FOR J T COME HOME.
come home dear, come home.
i need to talk, i really wannat talk.

so its 12:35
thinkin of what it shld be & what it cld be.
(thats a song)
breakaway - kelly clarkson

i guess infomation overload
and emotional talks
are just taking a toil on me.
its a jolly good time, for a time in the pool.
a run thru the rain.
a time for good chocs to be placed in fonta of me.
transitional comfort. ( this has no meanin, i think )

alternatively, i dont mind being put thru alot of pain.
physical rule over emotional/senseless pain
by a million folds.

sing.. original prankster.. original yeah ( groovy yeah )
drive ! drive !
& you lil huchiimamas.
hahas say HUCHIIMAMAS.

you can do it !

my back is hurting of lates.
must be the prolonged hours of sitting in front of the com.
i pray for wireless.
WIRELESS ! then ill be prancing ard the house
wid tee & boxers & ma trusty old lappie
which cant open my computer/doc/everything else.
UGHS. what the hell are you good for reallly.
flabbergasted.

so anw.
the day when i was running away from aaron.
ma wishlist increased.
(: i swear i have an unexplainable infatuation wid jackets/sweaters
anythings cotton. socks & underwears.
i know the crux of the problem.
im a sucker for comfort & affection.
comfy clothings makes ma wonderland.
lets play amg the clouds
and sleep amg the stars

i know this is a horribly long entry.
and for someone who hasnt been out
in a long long time
i do have loads of things to say.
but thats just me.
i have alot of things to say.
most of the time, it doesnt go thru ma da nao.

but im feeling me.
theres nth i cant get done
yin wei wo gen wo zi ji guo bu qu.

if youre gonna be unhappy.
be unhappy wid everything.

its the people you have that matter.
lets leave those who will eventually leave you.
its the things that you have that matter.
cos the world is bull-locks.
and i dont give a flamin tinker abt the world.

judge me. i rock.

1:29 PM