`'* dreams are beckonin

i'd like t think that im getting better at this mahjong thing
but i'm just like a flustered blur idiot when it comes
to playing a totally quick game of mahjong.
let the girl think man.

hohos, so yes.
i'm about to die in let's say..
2 days ? miss me while you still can.

yea, everythings changing so fast.
its scarying the berjermies outta me.
if i had jocks.. they'll probably be sizzled.
keep having morbid thots incessantly runnin thru ma head.
& the dreams i get these days are totally outta the world.
like yeah.. i dreamt that i was with chua.
i mean CHUA ? heh.

then i dreamt that firas & na came t ma place.
like why firas ? hehs.
this is just too weird.

i think i played ard too much wid the feathers on ma dreamcatchers.
& its letting in weird dreams & not like blocking them out.
or maybe.. those are the good ones alr.
man, its hard even t imagine.
but i think i know, i think i do.

i dont know, its like im not sad or anything.
but when you're like losing apart of yourself.
or apart of you.
you just don't know how to react.
like you're forced to take 2 stands.
im just totally ridiculously torn.

like talk to me
cos i dont know what's going on.
tell me how i'm i suppose to be
when you don't know me anymore
how is it gonna be
when i dont know you anymore

how's it gonna be.

11:47 AM