`'* dreams are beckonin

i need change.

10:15 PM

things have been kinda vague lately
like everything is in in betweens.

maybe having a blurry vision isnt all that bad afterall
maybe only time can tell
i dont know

academically,
i really think im screwed.
sigh, i really wanna work hard.
but there's no form of motivation
or no common goal
the structure is missing
i dont know how to complete or what to complete
there's just too many things.

im stressed out

- rants

6:08 PM

its the way you thrill me, then pull away
the way you seem to, kill me a lil more each day

- tagged by the memories of you

you know sth.
at the end of day,
there's only,
just one you.

- shrug
so i ask myself
what have i been doing to myself
in the past 6 years of life

-prance ard.
okay time to mug.

11:04 AM

thats how many times ive taken a photo with kailiang

11:32 AM

happy birthday jiyi

11:19 AM

BOAWEEE. -HUGS.

11:16 AM

clique

11:16 AM

all red & stff

11:15 AM

the class after pe

11:15 AM

jackson

11:14 AM

ronald (: jackson

11:13 AM

my girls for that night (: jesse sam jue

11:13 AM

in mr demon driver's car

11:11 AM

lets go out

11:11 AM

pro driver

11:10 AM

flowers from comms ball (:

11:10 AM

so now ill shift away
from what i used to be.

met yolks, leen, shun, joyce, cand, xius
on friday. met rui for a bit before that.
met with nette and lynn on wed before heading to mambo.
mambo with sam, jesse, kailiang, jackson was fun fun fun.
met dimitra last sat. kuofong on tue.
zr almost everyday.
met kervin, kenneth!, kailiang, haibo and most imptly keegay
last night. happy birthday kor.

ill be ya mei to always always.
it's been 4 years since we've met.
and im stil waiting for you to get a girlfriend !
i miss all the times we missed out on.
just hope that we dont miss out anything anymore.

singlehood for 5 weeks is not so bad after all.
as i head on to the 6th, i think i can hold out for more.
i get to do the things i wanna do,
meet the pple i wanna meet,
have the fun that i've been missing out on.

-shrug

watched my girl and i with BO BO yesterday.
schweetness.
im goin crazy over korean drama.
i cant wait for after a's.

im gonna start saving money.
from today to the end of the year.
and chiong korean drama and travel !

newyork, taiwan, hongkong,
perth, bintan & shanghai.

aiikkes.
good day world.
study hard.

9:20 AM

then u turn ard and say,
i've never stopped loving you.
no matter how spiteful i seemed to be.

but u said fuck off,
so i said fuck you.

knnnbccb, get the fcuk out of my life

9:15 AM

at the end of the day,
mostly the nights.

who really cares..
who really knows..
who can really do anything at all..

so i bear it all
keep it within me

this unhappiness.
only a 30 yearold cld emphatize with.

-

:D

grin it thru, sunshine.
i will always be with u.

3:16 PM

saturday 25 march 2005

was an honestly delightful day.

the day started 0ff with my usually morning happy msges.
thanks to trio.
cabbed down to sentosa to meet rui, lynn and val.
i was un-fashionably late yesterday.
1 hours and 40 minutes to be exact.

the sun was roasty,
but i wasnt anymore bronzer than i first started out.

took a train down with lynn and rui
to meet my lovely, jinghui
love you babe. moon & back, back again & again & again.

shopped around.
there're just too many things to buy this season
and i'm still not done.
but my account is pretty wiped out.

met sailor after that.
(met nelson in town tho! he's jing's pri schmate,
talk about an urban jungle, shrinking world)
((fucking 12 pages of THE globalisation lecture, beat that))
caught v for vendetta
it was cold cold nice nice

rushed down to the new cathay cinema after that
to meet my all time favouritest boy!
dimitra ! polka dot shirt lil one ! (:
dang it, why dont we ever have any photos tog.

jasper came to send me home,
he took a detour to phunk bar.
met all my lovely schmates there,
yes marcus ! STUDY.
jonchua, jj, weileang, yadayada.

he tried to lie to me at not being there.
but ah ha! who ya trying to trick.

had my third life-death experience in jasper's wife.
(sorry i slammed ya door :b)

and til forth the night was young.
im guilt ridden.

met carlyn tan ! on friday.
coffee and a nice walk.
i love you babe, you dont know how much.
more girlfriend times.

need you, miss you, want you so lesbian partner ! - muaaaa

i only wish i'm a lil more photo loved
and more of a cam whore.

sigh, memories...
i wish to keep.

9:48 AM

crazily mismatched

9:46 AM

friggin chubby why why why

9:45 AM

sth wrong with my face yesterday

9:45 AM

ben lai by tong en

has been lingering in my head for far too long.
under the forceful influence of wongmcron
or mcronwong as we call him.

he has ben lai, "actually" 3d-ed on his table.
in bright orange and purple (bro, what happened t ya sense of style)
and he has influenced me to do the same,
to scribble down what little i can make out/write out
on his little macdonald whiteboard.

but at the end of the day,
my memory fails me
and all i can grasp is ..

ben lai bu jue de ni te bie deng wo
zi dao ni zai ye bu deng ai wo yi hou

hur. days have been bright and good.
all in all, at least i'm happy.
I AM okay.

but what ash said keeps badgering me.
bro, really.
rhetorical, yes.

okay so this week i've only accomplished.
tanning at sentosa,
meeting my dear car (but not for nanny mcphee)
termly movies with mrdimitra (if he's stil fighting with min)
meeting jing for 2 weeks in a row (elation)

dang.
we keep falling short.

8:07 AM

you really are my estacy
real life fantasy

and daniel says,
"my favourite brand of estacy is rolex"
- widens eye

i need an insight to your life.
a little window to look through
bring me back to the beginning
bring me back to life
the air you breathe, the smiles you bring

and i miss you finally.

8:11 PM